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sad day tomorrow morning......... [Jul. 16th, 2005|12:37 am]
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[music |"Fly" - Celine Dion]

it's official:

tomorrow morning, or technically, this morning, at 9:15, we are putting my baby cat, Candy, to sleep. i can't stand to see her in her weakest state, she is only skin and bones now. this hurts so fucking much, it's indescribable. i hate this feeling. i hate that i'm loosing my best friend and my sister to death, just like everyone else i've lost. she's not even going to live long enough to see my birthday. this is so painful to talk about, but i need to get it out, i don't want to have it bottled up inside any longer. i might explode with rage on someone, and that is not something that i want to do.

and, i had my chance to get all of mah feelings out today. i got to go have lunch with one of my most favorite people in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD.....gina. she is flippin amazing. she made me feel SO much better. she knows EXACTLY what i am going through. she is one hell of a girl. she wants to be a pilot, dammit!!! that's SO flippin sweet in itself!!! plus, she's TOTALLY rad in every sense of the word!!! she's hilarious, too!!! she really helped me get my mind off of the situation, for a while anyway.

well, tomorrow morning/this morning, my baby's gonna finally get to meet God in person......that's a good image to think about. :) it makes me feel better about the situation, that God loves her SOOOOOOOOO much that He simply can't spend another day waiting for her in heaven; He needs her now. i raised her to be a good cat, and now she'll get to show her stuff off to the Lord and see if He approves, which i don't doubt that He will!!! she's the best of the best, and i love her to pieces. i'll miss everytime she put a smile on my face by just sliding up next to me in bed, or when she woke me up in the morning by licking my arm or face, and most of all, i'll miss seeing and hearing her come in my room, the way she'd purr and make me instantly want to give her oodles of kisses and hugs. i'll be sad when i think of her sometimes, i know, but i also know that she will ALWAYS be watching over me, be there for me, making sure i'm okay. :D she was and IS the most beautiful and most wonderful cat any could ever have. i'm glad i can finally give her peace and happiness; she deserves anything and everything. i'm so lucky to have had 11 of the most joyful and fulfilling and wonderful years with her, she changed my life for the very very best, and i'll be grateful for that forever. i miss her already. :(

i love you, candy cat. may you fly to where the angels sing. you are my angel. i'll miss your beautiful face and soothing purrs that sent me to sleep each night. i'm so happy you were a big part of my life, you will ALWAYS have a very special place in my heart, and i love you more than words could possibly describe. have fun playing with peaches again, say hello for me, and tell her i miss and love her. see you in heaven, sweetheart.

R.I.P. Candy 07*16*05
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[User Picture]From: [info]believe_it701
2005-07-16 08:56 am (UTC)

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I'm sorry that it had to be this way, sweetie. But we both known that Candy is in a better place now and that her pain has ended and that she will always watch over you. I'm so proud of you for staying optimistic and strong. I love you and I'm here for you no matter what.

I LOVE YOU MOST!
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-17 05:19 pm (UTC)

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it's okay. you're right, we do know that this is best for her. thanks for helping me remain optimistic, you know, i almost didn't make it, but you made me happy again. ;D thank you for everything, aimes. i couldn't have been able to get through this without you. she looked so peaceful as she drifted off to sleep, cuz we sedated her before she got put to sleep. so, i felt better watching her fall to sleep first before putting her to sleep for all eternity. i can't wait til tomorrow night, tho. we'll have good times. you n me, bro, it's gonna be the shit. no lies. ;D thanks for being the most wonderful and encouraging friend anyone could ever have. you rock my world, dood. :D see you tomorrow!! ;D POPOFF!!!

much much much much much <3 and many many many many many Grobie huggles,

~A to the Jay~

ps- i love you mostest. HA. ^_^
[User Picture]From: [info]michelle_lpfan1
2005-07-16 01:42 pm (UTC)

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i am so so sorry. i went through the same experience last year when i had to put my cat,Vicky, to sleep because of cancer (she was only 3 years old)...and what sucked was that it was right around christmas time which made it much harder for my sister and i to cope with. just know she's in a better place....i know that Vicky is, and i am sure Candy is too.
God Bless,
-michelle
(the girl from the justin bradley community)
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-17 05:22 pm (UTC)

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thanks michelle....i'm so sorry to hear about your cat, Vicky. that must have been horrible, i don't know what i'd do. :( i'm sure that right now, Candy and Vicky are playing with the biggest yarn ball ever up in paradise. i can't wait to see her again someday. and yeah, i'm glad that she is at rest and peaceful instead of having to live and suffer through her final days. it'll be okay, i'm doing better now than before. i know she'll be a wonderful guardian angel, as your kitty is. ;D thanks for thinking of me. it means more than you know. :)

much much <3,

~Sandi~
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[User Picture]From: [info]lackinpower2004
2005-07-16 10:20 pm (UTC)

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Sorry to hear about your cat sandals... Im in IL... I've been all over... my question is how did you find my livejournal?????????????
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-17 05:24 pm (UTC)

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thanks, paul....it's good to hear from you again!!!! where are you in IL? where has the journey of life taken you to these past few years??? and i found your LJ through amanda hirschmann, i just got reconnected to her recently, too. so, yeah, it is so nice to know that you are doing well!!! ;D talk to you soon!! :D

much <3,

~Sandi~
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[User Picture]From: [info]cutiecourt008
2005-07-17 09:03 pm (UTC)

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paul hunkle?!?!
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-18 01:15 pm (UTC)

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yup, that paul!!!!! hehe love ya, i'm still searching for the music, i think i might have found something, so i'll check it out. thanks for the other night, it was really nice of you and very helpful to me. i love ya, court!!! talk to you soon! ciao for now!!!

much much <3,

~Sandra Lee Lash~
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[User Picture]From: [info]ed2d2
2005-07-17 09:42 am (UTC)

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It's always really hard to lose a pet, because they're such important parts of or lives, such steadfast and constant companions.

Here's a great article on the theological backing for the salvation of animals.
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-17 05:34 pm (UTC)

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thank you, ed. those articles really did a world of good for me. it proved to me that i will see my little baby cat again someday. i don't think god would take away my angel only for me to never ever see her again. that would shatter me into a million pieces. and you're right, they are really important parts of our lives. thanks for your help, ed. you're such an amazing friend. i hope you're doing well. ;D thanks again.

much much <3,

~Sandi~
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oh, and by the way, it was really nice to see you at the parade the other day. ;D i hope to see you before you leave for college again. talk to you soon!!!
[User Picture]From: [info]joelley85
2005-07-17 10:27 am (UTC)

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Awww Sandi..I am sooo sorry too hear about your kitty kat. Just know she is looking down on you...if you need anything...I am always here for you. love ya bunches

<3 Joelle
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-17 05:36 pm (UTC)

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thank you, joelle. thanks for being there for me once again. i heart you so much, you don't even know it. :D i'll always remember my baby is watching over me, purring. thanks again, it means so much to me. :) i love ya bunches, too!!! :D

much much much <3 and many many many Grobie huggles,

~Sandi~
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[User Picture]From: [info]freetillmorning
2005-07-17 01:13 pm (UTC)

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I'M HOME!!!

I'm so sorry about your kitty. =( That's so sad! *hugs*
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-17 05:39 pm (UTC)

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YAY YOU'RE HOME!!!! i missed you, girlie girl!!!!!! ;D

and thanks, and yeah it is sad, but i'm pulling through it. it'll be okay. i know it. my kitty's spirit is still with me, and it will remain with me for the rest of my life. i love her, and i love u!!!! :) talk to you soon!

much much much <3 and many many many Grobie and Tuxedo Mask huggles,

~Sandi~
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From: [info]inspiresmiles
2005-07-17 09:23 pm (UTC)

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I'm so sorry!! :( I'm allergic to cats so I don't know what that's like, but you've got a good outlook! A better place! :) MISS YOU!
[User Picture]From: [info]sparklinglife34
2005-07-18 01:14 pm (UTC)

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thanks, and haha it's okay that you don't know what it's like, no worries. and thanks for the sweet words. it made me smile. :D i miss you too, twinniekins!!!!! mwah!!! i love you!!! ;D talk to you really soon, k? ciao for now!! love ya!

much much much much twin <3 and many many many many Grobie huggles,

~TWIN O MIN~
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